On My Mind

I'M BACK!! :] After a longg good hiatus. Well, today's 2 months, and I just felt like I needed to let all of this out.

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On my mind are a few simple words.
A Few simple words that have depth in meaning.
So much, that a difference will be made.

Life will have its ups and downs,
But this is it.
Forever shall I go.

Be happy, because I can never fulfill.
Your happiness shall go before mines.
You had your chance, now it's my turn to have mines.

I'm sorry to say,
That I won't be able to learn.
Love, something I can never fully treasure.

Go on, to the world.
Profess your needs.
Because I won't always be there.

But on my mind,
You have to let go.
Because the door has opened.

Sorry I haven't posted anything lately.

I just haven't been having any inspiration. GRR. That's probably not true though.

LAME.

Forever Gone

All I have to say is that this is NOT about a boy. For once. The feeling is painful. You know?

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Forever gone,
You've lost touch.
Your touch disappeared into the dawn.
Why leave?

You never were there.
Even when I needed you the most.
You all left me unaware.
Didn't you ever notice?

Can't you see?
What you've done to me?
You said you'd never leave.
Now look what you've done.

I'm sorry for this.
But you chose to make it this way.
I said you're a person I miss.
But is it really that way?

I can't bare
Any longer.
This is it. Unfair.
I'm sorry.

But you're forever gone.

Dear Ex-Lover,

I titled this "Dear Ex-Lover," because well, I don't want to call him an ex-boyfriend because well, I consider him more as a person I thought I loved. But boyfriend and girlfriend relationships are like actual love. Well, every stanza starts off as "Dear ex-lover," because it kinda represents the notes we wrote each other, since we wrote soo many to each other. And I'm making this my last poem about him, but there are other poems that I haven't posted up here about him yet. So yeah, but this is the last and final poem I am writing about him. Enjoy! And if you think I should make some changes, please do tell! :]

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Dear ex-lover,
Our journey lasted long enough to learn everything about you.
Why couldn't it last longer?
Long enough so we would no longer be two?

Dear ex-lover,
Has it ever occured to you,
That I still miss you?
It was a challenge to go through.

Dear ex-lover,
Have you ever thought about me?
Have I ever crossed your mind in your dreams?
Even if you did think, have you set me free?

Dear ex-lover,
Did you ever think about the love we had?
Or the memories we made?
Did they ever make you depressed or mad?

Dear ex-lover,
Why did we have to go separate ways?
We should have at least tried to fix things
I never meant to go away.

Dear ex-lover,
Do you ever think about how far we could've gone?
How about where we would be?
Or how life living with you goes on?

Dear ex-lover,
Would you have tried to fix things if you never had her?
Would you try your best?
Or would you leave it as a blur?

Dear ex-lover,
Do you ever think about our first kiss?
It wasn't "the most romantic"
But it is a day I'll always miss.

Dear ex-lover,
Have you ever thought about the days?
The days we spent; it was always a blast.
Everyday was romantic, except for the last in May.

Dear ex-lover,
Did you know that you'll always be in my heart?
Because it is the truth.
You'll always have your part.

Dear ex-lover,
I'm sorry for everything I put you through.
It wasn't worth it.
And I never deserved to love you.

Dear ex-lover,
These are my last words to you.
I'm sorry for all the trouble.
And this will be my last to you.

Forever's Last

This poem is pretty much self-explanatory. And well, I wrote it a long time ago. And found it in my little collection thing. And the title might seem confusing. But he told me it'd be forever, and forever ended. So last is like a metaphor for the end.

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Our memory beholds
The time of my life.
You taught me your style.
Also described me as your perfect wife.

Those days are gone.
But it's alright.
Because the time was worth a journey.
You were the source of my energy; my own light.

All I want to say,
Is thanks for being there.
I would have had nothing to begin with
If it wasn't for your gorgeous stares.

You taught me how to love,
To kiss,
To be happy.
Those days are deeply missed.

You weren't in my relaxed future
It' doesn't matter, love
Because I wanted nothing but
Just one chance, with your love from above.

Just the time with you
Were the good times I will never have.
Your kisses were to die for.
Those times, were days I never had.

I won't regret the times we had.
Even though my life is broken.
This life has given me
Forever's Last.